DAY 27

Today was a day filled to bursting with lovely people and I am so tired I don't know how I'm typing this. I am very much in love with all my friends but it worries me that I can't be happy while alone. I have good days btw, I tend to write this shit in the night which is when I'm alone and sad. Happiness is wierd. I don't think I'm happy. But I have good times. Today was largely happy. I don't think I'm sad. I think I just carry a lot of sadness and disconnect and insecurity. I don't know. Anyhoo I can barely see so I'm going to go to sleep and by sleep I probably mean fuck around on the Internet for a time. I don't even want to but I can barely stop it these days because I need comfort all the time. Sigh