I am sleepy. To be honest I'm still revelling in the insanity that was yesterday. I mean, before yesterday I had kissed one person, made out with three more, nine if them were a big deal or lasted more than a few seconds I don't think. Then that, then THAT, then all that. And it feels good. It feels relieving and like it went pretty well and it has done some really nice things to my confidence. A couple of doubts seem to have occurred to me but I think that's just late night blues.
Also first proper therapy session today. Interesting. The jaw stuff is getting ridiculous so it was needed. He has some interesting ideas and I really want this to work. Although if it does work and I become more relaxed then I might not be the me I am. Idk it's all a bit wierd.
Also I looked pretty in the mirror just now, in a kind of slightly hedwig showgirl kind of way. I wanna feel pretty and I think it's good to notice when I do. I want to notice my own happiness. I want to find less addictive comfort in the sadness
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