DAY 39 and 40

Shitting bollocking bugger I forgot a day. I don't know how. It was Halloween yesterday and I planned to do one before I went out but I didn't and oh fuck and now I've got nothing to say cos I feel kind of guilty but I don't know why. Like I'm not living how I should. Like I'm letting myself down and I don't know how. I mean obviously I let myself down regularly but something feels different about it now. Its probably to do with how little work I fell able to do and how the play is my life and ihow I use it to avoid pretty much everything. Anyhoo, I dunno what to do about missing a blog.